big words make me sound smart

jenny my sweet,

after careful decoding i came up with this: you have something to tell me, but i can't tell anyone - so you'll have to tell me later? well now i am eager to know what this news is! ring goes the phone. kill your roosters!

i have to say - it took me a bit of adjusting to become part of the (as you called it) 9 to 5 machine. i definitely got used to working late at chili's, coming home & hanging out with sean, sleeping late and not having to go into work again until it got dark out. i do like the regular schedule i am on now though. i do have some journal entries from when i first started the good old regular job that referenced "feeling like i was just sitting around waiting for the next life event to take place."

at first, i felt like every day was so mundane and the same that i was living for the next time i went to st. louis or the next time we had some kind of event planned. looking back though, i felt the same way when i worked nights. i hated the fact that while i was at work i was serving people who were out on their play dates having fun, drinking it up. maybe you working at the fox is a bit different though, as it sounds like you have a bit more fun at work than i had at the old ball and chain chili's.
have you ever had the classic "what's the point of all this?" thought? i've come to really like my job, but in the beginning i felt listless and pointless and any other kind of "less" you can come up with. in my new position at least i feel like i am contributing to something and i have fun at work. i think that's the biggest goal you can meet. if you have fun where you are - then its a good place for you to be. its even better if your job can be fun AND take you places. this job is a stepping stone to a better one - even if its at the same company - and i think that's a good way to look at it if you're ever feeling trapped.

i do love where i work - even if from time to time the teddy bear sneezes.

magnanimously yours,
laura